start of fall sem thoughts
sept. 6th 2025 4:18pm
i finally got around to (very minimally) coding this part of my site, which im really excited about! i usually prefer having a physical journal for my personal purposes, but i thought it could be fun to write thinkpieces here too. im just over 3 weeks into my sophomore year of college and its definitely been.. kind of rough.. ive been good about staying on top of things so far & im really enjoying all of my classes, but my schedule is so packed that sometimes it gets a little hard to breathe under all the stress and pressure of my countless responsibilities. this year, im living off-campus, which has also been a big adjustment for me. i really like it for a lot of reasons, especially because i feel like it forces me to be more responsible, but i do find myself wishing i was still living in a dorm a lot of the time. ive taken a lot of leadership roles in my university's choir program, which i dont regret at all, but its still something im having to learn to balance. making time to take care of myself has definitely been hard, but im making sure that it happens! my boyfriend and i have been watching 'the last of us' on hbo recently, and even though its not super consistent because im so busy/tired some nights, i like the show and being able to watch it with him so much.. hes always so supportive and understanding of my schedule and its always so nice to come home to him after what feels like the longest day in history (T_T) i love him so much.. so far, my favorite class this semester is theory iii -- which nobody is surprised about -- even though we havent gotten too deep into any new material. its mostly been review from theory ii and most of my classmates would argue that the lectures drag on forever, but i just music theory so much. my other classes are great too and i learn a lot from them, but im too biased for my own good.. my university has a relatively small school of music, so the other 3 music ed/voice students in my cohort have nearly identical schedules to mine, which means ive gotten even closer with them this year already, even though we were good friends last year too. recently, ive also been thinking a lot about my future as a musician and what career path i want to take. my heart really wants me to pursue musicology because im so passionate about music theory & music history (and writing about them), but its hard to indulge in those thoughts when i know theres very little to no job security in that field. last year i had to take a first year writing seminar-based course and i ended up writing a lot about classical music, which was something i didnt realize i was so incredibly passionate about until i wrote a 12 page research paper for an assignment with a 5 page minimum. ill definitely have to give this more thought, but theres a fork in my path that i can see in the distance and i will have to make a decision at some point in the future. anyways, to kind of wrap up my mess of a blog entry here, im hoping to establish a more consistent routine for myself going forward. i want to start making little youtube vlogs soon, which i hope will motivate me to keep up with that! ill be back here with more entries in the future too! (⌒▽⌒)☆
hobbies & the practice room floor
sept. 16th 2025 6:53pm
im writing this on the floor of a practice room rightnow. one of my friends has been crashing out over our piano class for the past hour because we have video submissions due for an exam grade tonight... yay! im not horrible at the piano but i will say i definitely have my moments. this week has been so long already and im ready to go home and sleep for 3 days straight. i think my boyfriend & i are going to finish tlou tonight, which im really excited about :D then we're going to watch a movie of my choosing soon and theeennnn we'll watch more of jjba! we've got this on lock for sure. recently, i started a book called 'absolutely on music' which is a compilation of conversations between haruki murakami and seiji ozawa about classical music, and so far i really like it! i look up to maestro ozawa a lot, and with him passing away not too long ago, i felt it was time to finally pick it up off my shelf. i need to get back into better reading habits because i know its healthy for my mind, especially because ive been struggling to separate my studies from my hobbies. one downside of being a music major is that what was previously such a huge hobby of mine is now my entire life because its my future career etc etc etc.. i just need to be more consistent about keeping up with other hobbies, though half the battle is the fact that nothing will ever be as important to me. i will say ive been journaling a lot lately! its been nice to get back into that... even if its only to try to ground myself when im spiraling or having an episode... listen, a win is a win. i am going to end this here though for today because i also have to record myself playing the piano unfortunately. wish me luck!!!!!!!
