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lazy end of summer days
jul. 24th 2026 2:59pm
i got back from visiting my boyfriend in oregon a little over a week ago and i spent several days moping around at my parents' house lazily.. its hard for me not to get so sad about having to be apart from him again but im back in my own apartment now! since getting back ive felt a lot more like myself and ive had more motivation, which is good since i have 3 summer courses to attend to... yikes... anyways, today i woke up earlier than i was expecting, which was really nice. i went to bed a bit late lastnight and had alarms set just in case i slept in, but i woke up before those alarms! yay! i only had one errand to do today that i'd been putting off for awhile, but i was able to do it and get back home in the early afternoon. i went to the video game store to try to see if they could fix my wii that has a jammed button, but they recently stopped doing repairs T_T i was sooo sad to hear this because i remember asking them if they'd fix it for me only a few months ago and they said they would but i never got around to bringing it in..... (｡ᵕ ◞ _◟) heartbreaking!!!! anyways i traded in 2 games that i really didnt want in my collection for some store credit there. i picked up a copy of ff7 for my ps4 and i still have some store credit left yaaaayy~ i considered selling my old gameboy color to them but i didnt think it was worth it for how little they wanted to give me.. either way, im happy with the outcome of my errand! now im in bed procrastinating on my summer homework but ive run out of things to talk about so i think its time to hit the books again >_<
birthday festivities & homework
jun. 9th 2026 3:22pm
today is my favorite character's birthday in japan, so i decided to go out to a new cafe not far from my apartment to get a little pastry and a drink to celebrate. i really enjoy oshikatsu a lot. ive already been taking pictures of my food when i go out for years now, so its fun to add a little more to that! im unfortunately still a little self-conscious & shy when i go out on my own with my merch so its hard but i know its good to get out of my comfort zone. im working on a project for one of my summer classes and its so incredibly tedious... as a music ed major, i still have to take some of the general required classes through the college of education which tends to be kind of useless because music education really is its own separate thing. its okay though because i only have a few weeks left of the class since its only a 1/2 summer term class ^_^ wipes sweat off forehead.. i dont mind taking summer classes because it keeps me somewhat occupied in a very structure-free time of the year. im usually so busy so i dont often do well without any structure >_> even though i enjoy having lots of time for my hobbies, its hard to say i dont miss being in school with my friends. im glad to still have an excuse to get out of the house because i regretfully have some bedrotting tendencies. im going to finish my melon cream soda & wrap up this project so i can go home n continue my persona 5 royal playthrough ♡
hobbies & the practice room floor
sept. 16th 2025 6:53pm
im writing this on the floor of a practice room rightnow. one of my friends has been crashing out over our piano class for the past hour because we have video submissions due for an exam grade tonight... yay! im not horrible at the piano but i will say i definitely have my moments. this week has been so long already and im ready to go home and sleep for 3 days straight. i think my boyfriend & i are going to finish tlou tonight, which im really excited about :D then we're going to watch a movie of my choosing soon and theeennnn we'll watch more of jjba! we've got this on lock for sure. recently, i started a book called 'absolutely on music' which is a compilation of conversations between haruki murakami and seiji ozawa about classical music, and so far i really like it! i look up to maestro ozawa a lot, and with him passing away not too long ago, i felt it was time to finally pick it up off my shelf. i need to get back into better reading habits because i know its healthy for my mind, especially because ive been struggling to separate my studies from my hobbies. one downside of being a music major is that what was previously such a huge hobby of mine is now my entire life because its my future career etc etc etc.. i just need to be more consistent about keeping up with other hobbies, though half the battle is the fact that nothing will ever be as important to me. i will say ive been journaling a lot lately! its been nice to get back into that... even if its only to try to ground myself when im spiraling or having an episode... listen, a win is a win. i am going to end this here though for today because i also have to record myself playing the piano unfortunately. wish me luck!!!!!!!
start of fall sem thoughts
sept. 6th 2025 4:18pm
i finally got around to (very minimally) coding this part of my site, which im really excited about! i usually prefer having a physical journal for my personal purposes, but i thought it could be fun to write thinkpieces here too. im just over 3 weeks into my sophomore year of college and its definitely been.. kind of rough.. ive been good about staying on top of things so far & im really enjoying all of my classes, but my schedule is so packed that sometimes it gets a little hard to breathe under all the stress and pressure of my countless responsibilities. this year, im living off-campus, which has also been a big adjustment for me. i really like it for a lot of reasons, especially because i feel like it forces me to be more responsible, but i do find myself wishing i was still living in a dorm a lot of the time. ive taken a lot of leadership roles in my university's choir program, which i dont regret at all, but its still something im having to learn to balance. making time to take care of myself has definitely been hard, but im making sure that it happens! my boyfriend and i have been watching 'the last of us' on hbo recently, and even though its not super consistent because im so busy/tired some nights, i like the show and being able to watch it with him so much.. hes always so supportive and understanding of my schedule and its always so nice to come home to him after what feels like the longest day in history (T_T) i love him so much.. so far, my favorite class this semester is theory iii -- which nobody is surprised about -- even though we havent gotten too deep into any new material. its mostly been review from theory ii and most of my classmates would argue that the lectures drag on forever, but i just love music theory so much. my other classes are great too and i learn a lot from them, but im too biased for my own good.. my university has a relatively small school of music, so the other 3 music ed/voice students in my cohort have nearly identical schedules to mine, which means ive gotten even closer with them this year already, even though we were good friends last year too. recently, ive also been thinking a lot about my future as a musician and what career path i want to take. my heart really wants me to pursue musicology because im so passionate about music theory & music history (and writing about them), but its hard to indulge in those thoughts when i know theres very little to no job security in that field. last year i had to take a first year writing seminar-based course and i ended up writing a lot about classical music, which was something i didnt realize i was so incredibly passionate about until i wrote a 12 page research paper for an assignment with a 5 page minimum. ill definitely have to give this more thought, but theres a fork in my path that i can see in the distance and i will have to make a decision at some point in the future. anyways, to kind of wrap up my mess of a blog entry here, im hoping to establish a more consistent routine for myself going forward. i want to start making little youtube vlogs soon, which i hope will motivate me to keep up with that! ill be back here with more entries in the future too! (⌒▽⌒)☆
